||[Sep. 28th, 2006|12:44 pm]
|||||Hidden In Plain View (in my head.)||]|
I must admit, I am a very lucky girl.
I'm sitting at work now, I just finished all my reading for my English 110 class (which is a lot of reading, by the way), and I'm here writing in my journal. GETTING PAID while doing it.
It's like part of the work study program, except I'm getting paid more and doing less. And it's not through the school, haha.
Today is going to be a really long day, pretty much all of my Tuesdays and Thursdays will be. I go to school from 8-10. Work from 11:30-4:30. School from 7-9:30. Not going home at all between those times. It probably doesn't seem like it's too long, but being away from my bed for that long is horrible.
School is becoming my favorite thing.
I enjoy it a lot more than I thought I would.
I knew I'd like it, but the stuff I'm learning is really interesting, and I feel like I'm gaining a lot more out of it than I used to. I think I'm more mature and ready to accept new things, and that's good when you're going to school, haha. I like my tits. I just wrote that to see if anyone actually pays attention to this stuff. I think everyone's so drawn in to drama and bad things happening to other people that they forget good things happen too. And good things are, well, good things.
I learned something insane in my AMES class today. Apparently "race" has very little to do with biology. It only counts for less than 3%, maybe even less than 1% of our whole being. Our skin color, our hair type, all just looks. Only one gene determines this, but it makes a lot of difference to everyone else in the world. It's basically the determining factor of how we live our lives, and what we do, everything. Less than 1% of our biology changes everything. How crazy is that? And we have our groups, whites, blacks, asians, latino's. According to the studies, we have 85% more differences between our groups than we have with people from other groups. It just blows my mind. I haven't been victim to much discrimination, but with one of my "friends," I feel like I went through a lot of it. She's white and I think she's in lower class, but she thinks she's middle class...even maybe high class. Either way, she made it seem like she was a lot better than me, which is not true at all. She tried to degrade me for whatever reasons, probably just because she's a racist, and I find this information out. Like wow. And it's not only her. My whole family. All the Filipino people. All of the asians even. They look down on me because I like the music I like, I talk the way I do, I am the way I am. I'm not a meek asian. Sorry I'm taller than 4'10, and I weigh more than 98 pounds. A lot more, haha. Anyway. I just thought that was weird.
I've also decided to just let everything go. I'm already stressed with school enough as it is, and I don't want to stress myself out with friends or anything else. My main focus is school, and that's the way it should be. I'm not going to involve myself in anything besides it. But god damn. That boy in my English 110 class is so cute. And when he smiles I can't help but look. And then it makes me smile too. And it just makes all of my days THAT much better. :)